2012: Week 1

Our week in review:

I spent Sunday extremely hungover (more on that at a later date).

Emma has been looking at her clock and yelling, "It's two-ninety-four! WE'RE LATE!" She's extremely protective of her mommy. She has been talking a lot about Uncle Nick lately. She calls Vincent "Pincent." Man, I love that girl!

Vincent is finding his voice. He coos and laughs all the time now. He kicks up a storm in his bouncy chair!!

Matt plays Call of Duty ALL THE MOTHEREFFING time. He got a promotion at work and now he gets all fancy every day. I like it. :)

I went back to work this week which isn't too much fun but it's nice to get out of the house. Plus, I get to take Baby Pincent with me.

Loving this life~

Whistle while you work...

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I feel like there is not enough time in the day to get everything done. I have been wanting to do some creative writing exercises on my blog. That is not happening at this point. I also wanted to start taking pictures everyday. That is not happening at this point. There are a lot of activities on my list of things to do but I can only do so much, I guess..

I miss the warm summer days of watching Lu play outside.. I'm longing for a lazy summer day right now.

He was just a little bug...

Little Vincent.. Who knew you could love someone so much?? When you have a child, you realize that there is this whole other level of love that you have been missing out on.. It's the kind of love that grabs your heart and squeezes the shit out of it. You seriously can't handle how much you love this little person. It is completely overwhelming! I have been overwhelmed by this love twice now and it is amazing. :)

Matt took this picture the day after we brought Vin home.. Probably while I was on my way to bleed out in the bathroom.. C-sections are fun.

Kiddos

My sissy is an amazing photographer!! I love her way too much. She was kind enough to take a few pictures for me when Baby Vincent was just two weeks old. Here is one that I love!!

Christmas Gifts..

This year, I didn't have a ton of time on my hands, what with a newborn and all.. I didn't paint a single canvas for Christmas and let me tell you... I'm having withdrawals! So, instead, I let my creativity flow through Photoshop. Not as much fun as painting but the end result was worth it. :)

Back to work. Sadface!!

Matt and I were blessed with a baby boy in October! His name is Vincent. :) I'm convinced that we are the luckiest people in the world...

Unfortunately, the new year means that I had to quit being a stay at home mommy and go back to work. But lucky me, I get to take Baby Vincent with me!! I have to leave Lulu with a babysitter and we missed her all day... She is the best big sister!!

Anyhoo, here's Vin, ready for his first day on the job.

Emma always says, "Hi, handsome boy!"

I think she's right!!

Christmas Morning

We had an amazing Christmas!!

I don't know why, but we didn't get a family pic... I'll be sad all year!!

And I'm back to the blogland.

Welp, it has been too long since I have blogged... A L O T has happened since I last wrote and I'm going to try super hard to catch up on everything...

First things first... My littlest brother and his beautiful wife welcomed a baby boy to their lives.. He is our sunshine on the cloudiest of days!! I can't even express how much I love this little sumo wrestler!! He is my sweet baby.. :)

They already have a pretty girl, Jessie and she is my sweet pea... I can't get enough of her sweet smile!!

So, for Christmas, I took these two images and created this:

Love this beautiful family!!

Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore?

I feel like I've spent my whole life waiting for the next thing to come along. When I was young, I couldn't wait to grow up, just like every other kid. I hated school but loved learning. I wanted to chase my dreams and never look back or have anyone looking over my shoulder. I couldn't wait to drive, graduate, become an "adult." hahaha.... All that came and went and then I wanted to do the next thing that came into my head, and the next and the next. And so it went...

Then, suddenly, my entire life changed. I met Matt, spun around and around in a whirlwind of emotions, fell in love. I started dreaming of new things. And then we found out we were going to have a baby. And I thought, well, that's it! Dream time is over!

The day we found out we were going to be mommy and daddy to a little girl, we also found out that our little jelly bean had a heart problem. Several times we were told that she may not make it. Even now, thinking of the things the doctors said causes my chest to collapse just a little bit. I can't believe there was a possibility that Emma may have not been in our lives at all.

Everyone knows the end of the sad part of the story.. Emma got through everything. She was a healthy and happy baby who lit up the world! Mine and Matt's world, anyway. And the best part is, I had new dreams to look forward to. All of her firsts which happen faster than you can ever imagine. All of the things she will do and who she will become. She is so beautiful... I find myself just staring at her, wishing I could freeze each individual moment and hold onto it for just a few seconds longer.

I see some mothers who are frustrated with their children, they're tired and they have no patience left for those little grabbing hands and whining voices.. Not saying I haven't been there because I have. I just think that if, just once, somebody came to them and said, "Your child might not make it through today." Their whole outlook would change. They would hang on to those little grabbing hands and never ever let go. They would cherish every laugh and even some of the cries and whines... They would try to hang on every moment with their little ones.

I feel so blessed to have made it through that time. To have been able to hold my little girl day after day and tell her how much she means to me. She has a lot of health problems but luckily, nothing that has tried to take her from me again. I never want to forget what almost losing someone you love so much feels like, as awful as that sounds... I never want to go through the motions with my loved ones. I want them to know how precious they are to me.

In seven weeks, we will be welcoming a baby boy into our little family. I can't wait to meet him and care for him and watch him grow. I just wish that for today, these moments with Emma would last a little longer than normal...

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

This one is way too hard.. There are so many things I want to do before I die and I don't know that I could find a photo that would be able to express how I feel... I know I could say something cool, like I just want to parachute off a mountain or  go backpacking through Europe (yeah, right.. Let's be honest, unless there is a tram, I'm not carrying a backpack more than about two blocks). Of course there are a million and one crazy things I'd like to do before I die but at the end of the day, they're not the most important things in the world.

Before I die, I want to see my daughter graduate from high school AND college.. I want to see her fall in love and get married and become a mother. I want to hear her laugh billions of times, and I want to dry her little tears when she is sad. I want to be able to provide her with the things she needs and teach her to appreciate the things she has...

I want to grow old with my husband.. I want to enjoy the time we have together as a family. I have been so blessed to have found someone as amazing as Matt to share my life with... He is the catalyst for every happy moment I've had in my adult life.. I want to make him happy and I want to be with him through every moment...

You never know when your last moment on earth could be... I want to savor every moment I have with the people I love... I want my family to know how much they mean to me.