Happy Birthday, LULU!

Emma,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! You are two years old today but you can keep telling everyone you're six.. You're so cute and funny, no one will correct you.
You are a big girl but you are not big enough to read what I am writing now.. Someday, very soon, you will be and then you can read this and the many other letters I've written to you. You will probably think I am silly to say the things I say to you over and over again but someday, you'll have a child and then you will realize what true love really is...

I just want you to know and NEVER FORGET or QUESTION how much Daddy and I love you, to the end of time and back. There is nothing you can ever do or say to change that. You are the light of our lives, the center of our world and I don't think you'll ever understand how beautiful you are to us, inside and out.

You are the funniest person I've ever known and you don't even realize it.. If you knew some of the stuff you have done (particularly to Dad) you would laugh up a storm! You show wisdom and compassion well beyond your years. You never want anyone to be sad so you're constantly saying sorry for things you didn't do and telling me we have to help someone. The other day at the doctor, you had just had your third shot for the week and you were crying so hard but the minute you heard a baby cry in the next room you stopped to listen and said, "Mom! He crying! Help!" And you ran to the door and flung it open. Emma to the rescue!

You have the most incredible heart in the world! Not only did your physical heart overcome what could have been a life threatening problem, you are BY FAR the strongest person I know. You have faced so many things in your two years of life and even though you cry sometimes, you always put on a brave face in every situation.

You smile and dance and sing your way through life. Not many people have that kind of will inside of them. You and Cabria have what I call the "Frolicking in the Wind" Syndrome. You two could hold hands and skip your way right through a hurricane! I think Cabria is the reason you are so happy all the time, you get that from her...

Trace... Trace is the reason you're brave. No one could have done all the things he has done in his short life and still come through it with that huge smile and contagious laugh unless they were brave. He is a hero.

Uncle Michael is the reason you're tough.. He is TOUGH. And he won't let you be weak. But he will also look out for you in the moments when you can't look out for yourself.

Auntie Mandy... She is the reason you have that sweet spirit.. There have only ever been two people in my life that have been my inspiration to be a better person because they are AMAZING people deep down to their core. You don't find many people in this world that are really like that. Auntie Mandy is one of them. Hold on tight to her and enjoy every minute you have with her because I promise, you will miss her when she's not around.

Uncle Joey is the reason you love music! He insisted we listen to music loud while you were in my belly, even when I didn't feel like it. He wanted you to have that passion and you've got it, hands down! You put on performances all the time and bow and say, "Thank you! Thank you!" like you're already a superstar. Hahaha. Sometimes you make Uncle Joe bow with you.

Uncle Nick... I didn't ever get to meet him but I've heard so many good things. I think that Uncle Nick probably gave you your silliness. Probably your sense of humor too. I wish that he could be here to spend time with you. I know he would love you so much and I know you would love him right back.

Grammy and Papa Bill are the reason you like adventure.. There is no one in the world that loves a good adventure like those two! Grammy is so brave, she'll take anything on in the blink of an eye! Just like how you're not scared to jump off of anything no matter how high it is, or how you'll play in the snow at night and you love every minute of it.. That is that incredible sense of adventure that Grammy and Papa Bill have instilled in you.

Grandma Sherry, whom you call Shewwy, is the reason you are so smart.. She teaches you everything she knows. She spends so much time with you just talking and laughing. She treats you like you are already grown up. You will appreciate it so much when you're older but right now, it's just a ton of fun!

Grandpa Don, Grandma Sally (whom you call Grandma Silly) and Caitlyn are the reason you are so good natured.. All three of them are so even tempered, you can't imagine fighting with them EVER. That's how you are too. You are so sweet, it's hard to get upset with you.

Grandpa Joe and Grandma T are the reason you play so hard. Grandpa is what normal people would call a "workaholic." Luckily he has taught you that playing is your job of the moment. You are employee of the year!

Daddy... Daddy is the reason you are WHO you are. He is the best daddy that has ever been. He says that he loves you more than all the stars in the sky, but I think he loves you more than that. And in case you were wondering where you got that stubborn streak from, Daddy is to blame for that. But sometimes being stubborn is a good thing! It means that you have a backbone and you will stand up for what you believe in. Daddy is what every man should want to be. He is my best friend and he gave me the most wonderful gift anyone has ever had... Y.O.U.

Your life has a cast of characters that make for the most happy endings. But never forget, the middle of the story is always the best part! The day you were born was the best day of my life. No other moment will ever compare to that one but all of the time I get to spend with you is more happiness than one person could ever deserve. I love you so much, bebe!!

Emma is funny.

Emma tells everyone she is six. I don't know what compells her to say that but it makes my whole day!!

I can't believe she is going to be two in a few weeks... SAD FACE.

My favorite face..

Hello Autumn!!

Fall is my FAVORITE season of ever! I think it just makes me feel so cozy... The weather cools down so you can start wearing snuggly sweaters, the leaves change color, pumpkins start showing up on porches... I just love it!! You see school buses on every corner and the school zone signs are flashing.. Leaves are bustling around the sidewalks and yards. It just makes me want to live in a small town where everybody knows everbody elses business and they all go to a Fall Festival and talk about each other and the legend of so-and-so and have dances out in the park.

Almost forgot the best part of Fall.... Football!! Go Chargers!

It may seem like...

I swear, everytime I take a picture of Emma, it's when she is sleeping... It's not always like that. But she is so pretty!!! I can't resist the sleepy time pictures!!

My favorite!

Surprise Ending

Photo by ME!!! What now B words????

So Pretty..

Photo by Blush Photography....

www.blushbybk.com

Flower Girl

Thanks for the photo, Mandy!! You are the best!

Little Bee..

Emma is excited for Halloween!!!

W O W

I can't believe it has been a whole year... On October 29th, my little Lulu will be a year old.. ONE WHOLE YEAR. I swear I just had her about two weeks ago but whatever! She is the sweetest baby... I know I'm the luckiest person in the world to have been blessed with such an amazing daughter. She inspires me everyday with her loving spirit, her open heart and her ever present smile.. She is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me and I love her more than I could ever put into words....

This was then... (Victoria Lynn Photography www.hollywood-fx.com)

























This is now... And yes, it is from my phone.. I suck, I'm sorry.

Little baby sleepy head!

Wedding!!

Click on the pictures to view them in a larger format...

10 days til the wedding!!

Once the wedding is over with, I'll have more time to update this biotch. Still haven't found my USB cord, but what can ya do?

Until then, here is an awesome pic from our engagements session... Photo by Blush Photography. http://www.blushbybk.com/

When you have a ten month old, everyday you feel like you inadvertently signed up for Wrestle Mania 2009. After a day of running after a crawling baby yelling NO ten thousand times, snatching things out of their hands a split second before they put it into their mouth, fending off tantrums and changing eight million diapers, you find yourself needing your own nap time.

My favorite part of the day is when Emma is sleeping. Because while I enjoy playing with her and watching all the hilarious things she does on a daily basis, when she sleeps, she lets me hold her and cuddle her. The rest of the time, she spends her day trying to find an escape route.

She was only three months old in this picture and My friend Vicki took it. Victoria Lynn Photography. And it is beautiful...

Thank goodness for Mandy! She has her shit together, unlike me. So here's a pic from San Diego! This was taken right before Shamu came out. Emma LOVED it!! She was yelling, clapping, laughing.... Until he splashed us. Then, she cried.

Pause.... For one week.

San Diego, HERE WE COME!!

We're going to spend a week in sunny San Diego!!! I will update with lots of new pics when we get back.

Until then, here's a photo of my blue eyed baby!! If I hadn't carried her in my own belly, I'd request a paternity test. She is too cute!

Ah, Boyfriend....

Emma is in love with her Uncle Michael and I'm pretty sure the feeling is mutual....

EmmaLooLooooooo

Matt sent me this picture a few months ago when he was getting ready to take Emma to my mom's house. Doesn't she look so happy??? What a sweet baby girl!! She looks like a smiling little angel......

As soon as he got done taking the picture, Emma started tooting.

My baby...

It is a sad sad day in the neighborhood... EmmaLooHoo is nine months old today. It's hard to believe the three quarters of the year have passed by since she came into the world. I know every parent says this but I just can't help myself, I WISH I COULD FREEZE TIME. I wish I could have every moment with my baby girl five times instead of just once. I wish we had cameras rolling 24/7 so that I could re-live each and every minute whenever I wanted...

This picture was taken when Emma was only four weeks old. She had just started smiling in response to our smiles and it was so exciting!! Before the smiles, all she did was sleep, eat, poop, and cry. I thought that was tough times.... HA! Now I can barely keep up with her! Matt and I are constantly running after her. She laughs and laughs and yells and screams and does whatever she feels like. I love her more than anything in the world..